My Story

Years ago, I had sex with this Girl and after we got done, she closed her eyes and when she opened them, they were filled with tears. I asked her “what was wrong”
She said “You gonna leave me after this”

That shit almost made me cry. I didn’t even know what to say. It wasn’t true but I set back and realized how Niggas Treat Years ago, I had sex with this Girl and after we got done, she closed her eyes and when she opened them, they were filled with tears. I asked her “what was wrong”
She said “You gonna leave me after this”

That shit almost made me cry. I didn’t even know what to say. It wasn’t true but I set back and realized how Niggas Treat Females nowadays. Every woman on this earth deserves to be treated with Love and Respect.
Who else agree?
We were raised by women. It’s time to give it back to our women, mothers, aunties, grandmothers, wives and friends. They must be loved and appreciated.
As the father of one, I know
– Carrying a baby ain’t easy
– Having an abortion ain’t easy
– Having to give birth ain’t easy
No guy has the right to ill treat or disrespect a woman.

After her doubting question, I answered with a shaking tired broken voice and I was like “Babe in you I saw love and future. If I dump you after two second of pleasure what will be my benefit? I don’t do hit and run. I care about my life like I care about you. I love you and I’m here to stay. Allow yourself to love and to be loved. Don’t let your past paralyze you and prevent you from finding happiness. Yes, it hurts but baby allow yourself to heal. I’m here forever.

That was my answer to her. She was beautiful but you can tell from our conversation that she has been hurt before. She has been hurt so many times before by the people that claimed to “love ” her. So it was hard for her to trust people.
Each time she gets into a relationship she becomes paranoid and insecure.

To all the gentlemen out there who keep treating their girl/wife right, you deserve an appreciation post. Keep making your woman happy and show everyone that good guys still exist in this day and age.

We happily dated and then got married. God blessed us with a baby girl. We even bought a house in Soweto GP (South Africa). She never thought she will ever feel loved like I did give her love.

But…

After all the years of sacrificing my soul to her, moulding her into a confident woman, giving her my all, choosing her over everything, she chose to dump me. I thought love was all that she needed but I was wrong. She is not what I thought she was.

Is it because of accident or because I lost my job after a brutal accident? I’m still curious to conclude because I don’t know what influenced behind her action. She was never there for me since I have been hospitalized. But she said she loves me?
How can you say you love someone and then choose not to be supportive?

I was discharged after two months. She never had any idea that I was coming home. Maybe she thought I was dead or she wanted me do die? When I arrived home I was happy and in a hurry to meet my wife only to find her in bed with my Friend, happy and laughing as though nothing had happened.
She lied. She cheated me. She deceived me.

I was in pain. I didn’t have energy to fight them. I took my daughter (who was sleeping in her room) and few clothes and then left. She wanted to talk and explain but I was in pain, I didn’t wait. I was hurt emotionally and physically. I wanted to go back after few days of that scenario. But my pride didn’t allow me to do so. I had no one to talk to at that time. She has no parents, few of those who negotiated our relationship had left and they were far from being reached.

Honestly it took time to move on. It took time to completely heal again. Even now, it is taking time to learn how to be happy without the person I thought I couldn’t live without.
As days passed by, I started to slowly let go of all the feelings, emotions, memories and everything that happened between us. She came to my house two weeks later not to explain but to tell me it was over between us. I never answered her. After all, she was already pregnant with my friend’s child.

Life will humble you but learn to let it go. As painful as it was, I just had to let it go. I can’t live sad all my life. It’s better to deal with the heartbreaks than to always go to bed with teary eyes. Love is cruel sometimes but when you fall for wrong people, it is hell on earth!

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